Marry him or leave? Abortion or keep? Please please help

I am twenty four and had been with my fiance for 2 and a half yrs..we were due to get married in 7 wks but our relationship has become so bad we are living seperately until we decide what to do..i just found out i am pregnant (v early stages) and do not know what to do. We had an abortion 6 months again and while i do not regret it it has been a big emotional toll. I can not support myself financially and feel scared and alone. I have been pretending to friends and family we are happy and cant talk to anyone - they all think we are getting married soon. I wanted to be happy before i got married and i def didnt want to be pregnant (as selfish as may be its the truth) I feel like i bad person for really being desperate and not wanting it i am not ready ....should i marry him try and make it work and have this baby? Should i have a second abortion and leave him and move on? Or should i go it alone? Please give your advise dont be too judgemental...

Yea he knows and would support me either way. I live in a different country from my family and i have been hiding it and becoming more distant from them. I never call ne more just message and its been easy to hide things because of it. Everyone thinks we are the perfect couple and i hav just helped by enhancing this image they all have. I never told anyone about the first termination 6 months ago only me and my partner. I dont know that i would want them to know if made the same decision again they would not approve i think

Hi I would talk to you family you need them right now in your life...... you have isolated yourself and now it it time to reach out ..... something is not right with this relationship... Talk to your family and good luck.... I think you need to see and be around friendly faces for a while.... you sound very low and this is load that you cannot carry on your own. Do not make any rash decisions, until you have support of the right people having talked things through. Whether that is your family or a professional who specializes in these circumstances. First thing is to contact a family member , one you can trust ..... if that is not possible there should be a helpline for you to contact and someone close to you that you can talk to.