Xmas Eve has complicated my life :(

Right, im in a relationship, totally in love with my boyfriend......seriously i have never felt this way about anyone before, hes amazing, hes perfect. I cant begin to tell you how perfect he is. He stopped at his families this xmas, so i went out with my friends on christmas eve. There was a guy there, hes been such a good friend for years, and i havent seen him since easter, so obviously i was very happy to see him. We got very drunk, and obviously its christmas so we were huggin n stuff which isnt unusual....hes been like a brother to me over the years so it wasnt unusual that we were close, we were tryin to set up our mates and i sed aaw man i wish they wud just kiss. and he sed "wot like this...." and kissed me, i dnt even mean a peck, i mean a proper kiss, by the time id realised wot he was doing (sounds silly but i actually didnt realise wot he was doing....because i was so intoxicated) the kiss was over....he looked like hed done nuffin wrong, whereas i was stressin all nite about it, he didnt care....now im worried sum1 saw, and is going to tell my lovely boyfriend....am i being selfish for not tellin my bf? the kiss meant nuffin, i didnt even want to kiss him.....n ive regretted it ever since....i cnt lose a best friend and a boy friend...............help

Well I think that you should tell your boyfriend because if he found out from someone else he could get the wrong idea and think it meant something. He may be angry at first but he would appreciate your honesty, if you explained what happened and how you felt afterwards then he may be more understanding because you did not do anything wrong. However, you do need to talk to your friend about it because he should respect you have a boyfriend and not disrespect your friendship like that. It could just be a drunken mistake and would not happen again but you need to sort this out by talking to one another.

but im so scared, just the thought of losing my boyfriend is making me feel sick, ive not stopped cryin since it happened, and i really dont know how to tell him, the thought of wot ive done makes me hate myself, he will leave me, i kno he will....and i cnt live without him, hes my best friend, my everything, i love him soo much. i am soo scared. im really not a bad person, but i feel like the worst person in the world, i feel like maybe i shud tell him so he will finish with me, because he deserves sum1 who wudnt do n e fin like this to him, he deserves so much more than this, and its breaking my heart...ive not ate, didnt even eat my xmas dinner, i havent slept because of it, and im exhausted. The reason im so upset is that the love of my life will probly leave me by the end of this week...and theres nothing i can do about it, he'll hate me, and the thought of him hating me makes me feel like my life isnt worth living.....ive told my friend i never want to see him again, i cnt, i have to lose him for my bf, because without my bf im nothin i really really cnt deal with this....