If you were on my shoes, what would you do?

Hello, Before I tell you my story I need to tell you that I really love my girlfriend with all my heart. We started dating during the first years of college, and I became deeply in love with her initially we started as friends then became a couple, when were a couple we sometimes sneaked in my house while my parents were away, and twice I had the bad idea of filming our encounters with my camera and she did not know about it. I kept the videos to myself, and did not showed it to anyone. years after that I had success in college (I studied computer science) , I managed to do very good and was very arrogant, because of this I gained a crowd of haters. One day while talking with other college students I said that I onced filmed intimacy whiout her knowing. Months after that, a student told me that a professor has managed to hack my computer and stole the video. Of couse after that I proceeded to delete the videos. After all of that I managed to score an internship at a very important company that had links with the media, comunications and computers. The college student that told me about the video knew some people there and the profesor that supposely stole my video knew some people there as well. Now while I was doing this internship I had to quit because I kept hearing things about the video, things like we shall put him in jail, and other things which were not directly said to me, but I kept hearing them. (was I being schizophrenic?) Today I have my work, and my girlfriend and I have placed a date for out wedding, she finished her master degree and I really lover her deeply and I know she loves me as well. Now this past month, I keep seeing in the news, television, newspapers, that everything is about hacked photos, like the ones from jenifer lawrence, women telling how much they have suffered because of their privacy being violated, locally in my country there are other people that were fired because of leaked videos. of course I am thinking In my head that this got to do with me and that the media (the people behind it, which of course I have a connection because of the intership) is sending a message, and that they are waiting for the right time to release it. Now my girlfriend is starting to work in the US and I am so afraid that this goes out. I have no way to know for sure if the videos was really stolen, or if it was just to mess with my head (which it is doing up to this date). And I dont want to tell her about it, because I can lose her. What should I do?