More to can't let go of what I remember

To let you know a little bit more. When me and this man were together we were really happy. We didn't argue, we have everything in common from music to the same style. We even both enjoy the same type of hobbies.I know us being apart has to do with financial problems. I know that's not an excuse he should stick by my side even when times get hard. As for grieving the loss of the man I had been with for so long.when he died that person that I was died with him.I've lost so man people that were close to me. Over the last 5 or 6 years from my mom to one of my best friends. Who was shot in front me and died in my arms. Then my brother in law was shot and killed while trying to help these people that were being robbed. Then the man I was with died. Not that much longer after that of congestive heart failure. So I feel like I don't even know How to grieve anymore.its kind of a desensitized feeling.so when this man came into my life it seemed right for the new me I had to be.I know nobody can understand until they have experienced something like that.I know what this man is doing right now is not right. But I really do love him and I don't want to lose him. I'm tired of losing people I love I know its not the same as someone dieing but its still a loss ust the same. And were eveything is telling me to leave this man alone, my heart just wont let me walk away,I love him to much. If there is someone out there that can tell me how to walk away from this man please let me know how?

Hi LOSTINTHOUGHTS, First off, I want to let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. Based on what I\'ve read, you have been through a lot. Secondly, I suggest you seek a therapist. You are still grieving and you need a little assistance with this. You are not alone. Third, you deserve the world! This man is very selfish and is only looking to use you based on his convenience. I want to be honest with you. If it was real love, he would have stayed and not went back with the baby momma. You deserve the best! I want you to be the best that you can be and love yourself first. Start with a therapist to deal with your grievances. I don\'t want you losing yourself in the process of trying to keep someone that doesn\'t respect you. If he did, he wouldn\'t have put you in that situation my dear. Good Luck! I have faith in you! Email me if you want suggestions. A Stunning ME, Life Coach [e-mail address removed]