Stuck

I feel guilty as it is that my problems are not nearly as terrible as others on this site, and yet I am plagued and drained. I am bright, young and attractive. I have a 4.0 in my Honors Program in college. I have a 2 year old daughter. I am married to a fanatical kid with no sense of reality over fantasy. I moved into my mother's house with my daughter a year ago, and am still depressed. I am stuck in a job where I confront my innate fear of confrontation daily. I help so many people and there is no appreciation. I'm exhausted. I have a history of depression and suicide attempts. My husband sneaks behind my back doing god-knows-what...today I learned every time he went to abandon me it was to smoke pot. Just shortly after my daughter's birth. The other people in my household are morbidly obese, lazy, TV-addicted parasites that do nothing but eat and stay glued to their Ipads. Why am I stuck? If I'm so smart like the IQ test and school says, than why am I living a life meant only for failures and irresponsible people? I thought I was better than this. I thought I was going to explore the world. Instead, I got married and pregnant shortly after because I was in "YOLO" mode after being released from jail in 2009 after one week for an underage intoxication. Maybe I'm not as smart as I thought I was. I just want to get out and save my daughter from this life. I want to show her life is beautiful. But there is no beauty here.

hello , dont sound so down , everybody is tested in life, its how you get out of this one , YOLO also applies to how no problem is too big for you to not get out of it by putting your best efforts , you only live once , so why like the life youre living and not live the life you like instead ? your husband must be havin his own set of problems , you should talk without being judgemental to figure out how he sees the situation you're stuck in , you have your precious daughter and how you deal with this will probably affect the rest of her life , so et an example and smile and go about it giving it your best , get a new job , one which you think you'll be good at , teach your daughter somethign new or learn a new skill , become your own person , if you help others so that you feel needed and wanted and they thank you , well this will never help you because people forget really fast and it will make you feel shitty help because it makes you feel happy , nothing worng with being selfish and saying no when it doesn't give you joy , god made you and gave you a daughter for a reason , he gives his toughest battles to his toughest soldiers , have faith sweetheart and smile when troubles come , think positively , get out breathe and go about doing thing one at a time , what can you do that will give you self esteem ? do that ! dont define your life by other people around you , be happy and healthy , they will want to emulate you , its an inner balance , its when you realise nothing lasts and it all goes away , you need to do your best and let the rst all go , kids are sensitive to feelings , so learn to be happy in front of your daughter and dont feel shitty if you dont feel happy , but feel bad if you havent made an effort to be happy