Pushing love away, or not 'in love' at all?

Hi everyone, I am 25 and have been in a relationship for 1 year and 2 months. I pushed relationships away for years because, in every case, I feared we would get sick of each other, so I didn't let anything get serious. In this case, my boyfriend said he wasn't going to let me run away. He told me he loved me after 4 months and I didn't say it back. I still haven't said it back because I want to be totally sure before I say it. However, I realize I have almost never been "100%" in this relationship. I don't know if this is because I have subconsciously continued to push away something real, or if he is truly not meant for me. He is one of my brother's best friends and I trust him very much. He is amazingly kind and considerate, and took care of me when my father died suddenly about three months ago. I should be head over heels, but I continue to find myself not wanting to be around him all the time and growing irritated with him when we're together. I thought time would sort this out and that "feeling" would come eventually, since this is my first real relationship as an adult and I'm not used to any of this...but so far, I don't have a consistent feeling of wanting to stay. I recently told him I need some time to figure myself out (we haven't spoken in a few days) and I think I want to break up with him but I don't want to regret it later on. What do you think of this situation? Thanks in advance!

Well If you truly feel this way maybe you should follow your instinct. If he is as good of a man as you say & you are completely honest with him .He will still be there for you either way. Just be kind . & follow your instincts they are usually right.

i think you really have to be honest with what you really feel deep down .Dont make the mistake of being with someone just for their happiness alone ,or it will eat you alive .The main thing we strive for is happiness first .....relationships can come second .And if the happiness has gone .......well i think u know if your really happy or not .