He makes me fall out of bed

So one day my world was rocked. I met this one guy and we had alot in common and we loved being around each other and hanging and talking. Then one day he confessed to me and askede out and I said yes. Then it got complicated and we were basically lovey dovey one moment and the next we ended up mad and stopped talking to each other. Finally one day I told him that my parents had beaten the living shit out of me and like after that he basically stopped textinge and our conversations started to be small chit chat then adventually he stopped talking to me. Then one he texts me to tell my bestfriend Megan who I was with that he was at the mall with His best friend Caleb and that Caleb said hi and like he didnt even bothered today hello. Then I asked him are we even dating anymore an he said no you have to much drama in your life. So we stopped texting each othe for like a week or two and all of the sudden he textse asking to go to the mall and I was all like "maybe and idk I'm getting high and I'm still kind of a little fucking hurt from the last time you talked to me." At that moment I wasn't getting high I only said that bc i knew it'd hurt him but I was sad and hurt so like then he said bye nice talking to you and we stopped talking then like i was texting his bestfriend at that same time to then I told Caleb that I had to go I'm pissed off and hurt and Caleb asked why and I said bc of Dylan. Caleb then told me he only broke up with you so like you could figure out all your probs with our having to worry over a relationship and I texted Dylan after that and apologized and he told me we can talk about this later that night but I forgot then like the next day I texted him and it was awkward and we only did small talk and like I told him I was setting up the band carnival and he was suppose to be my date and he was like O I forgot about the carnival and then like after we said good bye and like we never talked again and like I've tried texting him every once and a while but he never answered so I quit. I don't what going to happen to us or even if he's moved on idek I know I didn't even know I texted him saying that which probably fucked thugs up more and now I don't know what to do. I just miss him. Sometimes it'll get so bad ill start crying idk what to do and then like his birthday is coming up soon and idk if I should text him wishing him a happy birthday. I just don't know what to do anymore will you help me?

Thanks but I still don't get why he atleast won't text me back....

Umm... I can't remember about the complicated part. And yes my parents do and that time no but I have before. I've was in a troubling place and I had gotten out of the hospital like two weeks prior bc I had tried to commit suicide

Suicide? Why?