My 3 year crush and I need some advice

Got a crush for 3 years. NEED SOME ADVICES First of all you must understand the situation. i've met someone 4 years ago and was totally into her. She breakup without any reason and broke me mentally by the way she has done things but kept me in chains as she left doubts before leaving. i was blinded by emotion at that and i promised her that ill wait for her. Being a man of my word i've done it. That is where my actual crush appears. Perfect match! But i was a total jerk to her. All my frustration/ anger for my ex were directed towards her. I was blinded with my past and my fuc*** promise. Understand that i was fuc*** up/even try to commit Suicide at some point!! Not my nature being a jerk. However she helped me. We Became very close and both knew we've crushed on each other. But i couldnt make the final move because of my past and the promise to my ex! 6 month after the breakup, my ex appears in tears and she bla bla bla! I kept my promise and were back together. I left my actual crush alone/sad by my unwise decision. But she was happy for me. Later with my mental state restored, ive realised what ive done. I dump the one who hurt me without hesitation and try to repair my wrong doing. But is was too late she met a REAL jerk who like to play with girls. But she was totally into him more than she was with me. The guy broke her! I told her about my feelings but was too late we remain really close friend for the past 3 years and remnant of this crush between us was still present Now 3 years later we are still very closed friend with growing feelings. But shes on and off. We flirt then she disappears for days. As if she is afraid or carrying a heavy burden I still try my best and she knows my feelings for her and she acknowledges that! its been 2 years since we last met; she often tell me we need to catch up but she is never free when i talk about meeting each other We are known in different worlds, and were are changing. I fear that this time i will lose her completely But what kept me believing is that she said "i know we will find our back" I dont know what to do .. continue to wait or TRY move on??? What i know is that i met her in the wrong time on my life. PLEASE I NEED SOME ADVICES to deal with this situation.

both 24. she'll be on her 25th this year

God loves you.

at SUZIEQ: Actually i won't bother try telling her that right know. she will react the way you mentioned. at MSDAISY: I agree that the drama was boring. The information were just here for you to have a clear judgement. Actually my actions at that time were clearly disconnected ill give that to you. But after restoring a mental stability, things were back to normal. The only thing is that i can't deal with this particularly tricky situation up until now. About the "cannot handle relationships or any friends whatsoever".. Handling frienship its pretty good, but relationship in another hand. Not like in those 3 years i haven't met other girls. But there is a limit that i wouldnt allow myself to cross with them. The same limit that i would gladly cross with my crush. Im a man with principles. And i fully adhere to them. They've help me keep control (as you mentioned). But right now non of them is helping me.

You said she's broke. What she needs is a friend who will be there, not a boyfriend. In her mind she's probably scared of getting hurt again. If you're serious, then tell her about your feelings and relieve her insecurities. Treat her good. & if she still is hesitant, you need to just be a good friend and move on with your life.