Confused about myself

okay so I don't like where my relationship is I don't think I'm happy but then at the same time that person makes me happy we have one kid together and I don't want break up with him but the thing is I still like my ex he lives all the way in Louisiana so there aint no point going to him and also he has two kids from a different mother and I dnt like them my bf gives me attitudes, talk to girls like he is single hasnt posted a picture of his new son on fb or no pictures of me but he got pictures of his other 2 kids I thought I made the rite decision in making a baby with this person but I guess not. He loves his new son and takes care of him. But it seems like you cant share equal love. Makes me feel like going out there and find a new person to be with.

You're feeling left out and neglected while you should be your BF's priority especially after you have a son together. You need respect and you're not getting it from your man. Therefore, if you can't talk to him about your issues, and he again disrespects you by talking to other women like he's single then his actions are speaking. He also has trouble putting all his children on the same 'page'. They all should be equal. He should be proud of all three. Leave your ex out of it and get over him first properly before going elsewhere. This could be half of your problem...you still like your ex. You can't commit properly with a new man without being completely over your last relationship. Your son is now your most important priority in your life and you need to be happy for him. Sort your head and your heart for your son's sake.