My wife opened my pad and found a video paused of a couple of women making out with each other

It is not a "usual'" thing for me. I used to have a problem with porn. It ruled my nights during college days. But now I am older and only have found myself using it a few times a year. My wife often "shuts me out". I am so attracted to her. She is my fantasy. But, somehow she always finds a reason to be angry with me. We have went 6 weeks without sex... I get strong urges just seeing her sleeping next to me. It gets so bad I have to go sleep somewhere else so I can stop thinking about her. Then there are times when I feel I just need to take care of business myself. I will use a video to turn me on and then its just her in my mind... fantasizing about my wife... the whole thing just seems twisted.

So was she mad? I would tell her your sex life sucks and maybe she isn't a sexual person but you are this is how you express your sexuality when you don't have a partner (her).